This time it’s been 38 days since my last update here, and instead of time passing by so quickly I barely noticed this time around I felt as if it’s been forever. Lately I’ve been doing this thing called 自分探し (searching for one’s self) and I’ve actually stopped playing Skyrim.
The last 38 days
I quit that god forsaken newspaper delivery job. Sure, it pays well but I was literally dying after doing it for less than two weeks.
I came to the realization that interior design was not my passion. I had tried to fool myself into believing that just so I can keep working at IKEA for several years and not care about anything else. My passion is to go to Japan and… so far that is it, hence the 自分探し.
I also came to the realization that IKEA’s “lots of opportunities” are not so special. I don’t have to work strictly at IKEA to find good opportunities.
So I have made plans to quit my job at IKEA and go back on that job offer from TELUS. If I’m going to be working at a place for several years before I can get anywhere then I might as well pick the one that pays $20/hour.
However, all this thinking about what I want to do with my career
I spent $600.00 buying new furniture from IKEA and then spending many hours assembling it for my room; which before had absolutely no furniture and I had to leave everything on the floor.
Here is a current work in progress photo.
I think I am entering an extremely late rebellious phase where just being in the same room as my mother bothers me let alone listening to her nag me about what I should/shouldn’t do. I have made plans to move out as soon as possible.
I am now more obsessed with foursquare and twitter than ever before now that I have a shiny qb phone; you know, the one where you have to sign a contract with the devil’s fruit for.
There’s so much going on in my head right now that I don’t even know what to write here anymore. It’s either that or using Twitter is causing my writing skills to completely turn to shit.
It’s too bad that things aren’t working out for you. I hope you are able to figure out what you wish to do as well as reach that lofty goal. Best of luck finding a new job and hopefully starting to enjoy life more.
“the one where you have to sign a contract with the devil’s fruit for” <– You signed a contract with the devil… 's fruit?? Oh man, that line is so deep on so many levels i don't even.
Glad to see things are changing (for the better?), b/c you're old schedule is beyond die-hard. You know, if you want to try combining Japan and money making for a change, you can try this JET program thing my instructor keeps telling us about: it's basically a program where you pretend you know english and you go teach (read:trick) english-iliterate Japanese kids.
When I was thinking of your situation you pretty much what I had in mind. Well specifically the morning dying the IKEA thing and the TELUS thing.
Well these are your own choices so just hope it works out positively over all.